Toorare, 42

I often use the word desire for miss. Although I often feel immense lack in my human experience. I'd rather focus on briding that gap. I desire genuine, authentic and fulfilled connections with any one. When it comes to the individual that may be my long time partner or person of significance there are no exceptions. If it's not there. It isn't there. I believe in the allowing things to be natural. If there is a connection DO NOT manipulate the timing or pursue its routine. Allow it to grow into what it is. That may not always work to one's advantage or favor. It will just continue to throw more unnecessary obstacles as well as uneasiness on your path creating tension and resentment. For me everything starts small and works its way up. I understand there are a lot of us that are in dire need of connection, touch, and love. Many of us have different ways in expressing and reciprocating that. Many also have misconceptions of one depleted of things. They are clingy, too attached, or childish. If one is stranded without food and water for weeks what do you think happens when they are met with kindness, integrity, and compassion to be fed until their hunger subsides. Cared for with shelter, air conditioning, a bed, protection, and other acts of kindness finally. This person is going to indulge until their levels are brought to satisfaction. Just my take on it.. My disappointment is that every time I've been taken in it was either a mirage or a tactic to be taken advantage of by bread crumbing me into submission. So like others that may be able to relate. When what you desire really does come around you're very cautious and dismissive alluring the wrong energy out of fear and anxiety. Are they real, Is this real? What's their intention? Why are you so kind? You wait for that other shoe to drop. When all along they are both planted firmly to help lift you up.